30 . september . 2024

i’ve been holding off on restarting a blog/website for a good bit now. i even wrote two posts in june with the slight intention to possible resurface my writings for the few that actually still read blogs.
i held off because i didn’t want to overcommit and jump into something that i couldn (wouldn’t) stick to. but then i deleted instagram and everything changed for the better.

i feel like i have way more time now, far less anger in my veins, and a better grasp on the relationships that matter (and the ones that are reciprocated). it provided boundless clarity on several different areas of life, but the biggest one being communication and what it actually takes to have a relationship.
i have a lot to say on the pitfalls of instagram, but i will save that for actual face-to-face conversations instead of here on the internet. however, i will say that i have written more letters, had more meaningful conversations with more people (though still very few people - i think this is good and the point of adulthood), and started and finished several projects in the past few months.
i am certain that a lot of this has to do with the fact that I am also pregnant and my scope has narrowed, as it should, and i more determined to stop waiting around for things to fall into place and instead order them around myself. i am surprised, though, with how much i have gotten done. it’s pretty impressive (to me and joshua at least, ha) because i had procrastination-itis for just about ever, and apparently impending parenthood kicks that to the curb pretty effectively.

anyway, with all that being said, i have made more space and time for myself during this chapter of preparation, which has since allowed me to prepare to continue to make space and time even when most of my time and energy will go to sustaining a new life. just because i’m having a baby doesn’t mean that i stop being me and the things important to me stop being important. i think it’ll be good to have a place for me to document this whole new chapter of life anyway. i do want to try out new formats and really just give myself more freedom from form and making sense, so we’ll see what this space becomes. either way, i’m excited.

i’ll sign off for now, as i have things i’m excited to do before babe comes, and thankfully also prepare for babe’s arrival.

til then -

xx hannah